I used to live in San Fernando Valley, and because of where
I lived, I chose not to send my son to school in the Bario, so I commuted him
to school about 25 miles North of where I lived. He was 10 years old. We had to
get up early and this day we got up extra early because I had to make a stop.
I called a dear friend on the phone and asked her what she
was doing. She told me she was watching the news, that an airplane had flown into the one of the
World Trade Centers. She talked to me for a few minutes and then said “Oh My
God! Another plane just hit the second Trade Center !”
And she clicked off the phone.
I sat there and because I am selfish and self-centered, my
first indignant thought was “she just hung up on me!” Then my skin crawled as I
realized what she was saying. It dawned on me very quickly that one airplane
into a building might be an accident, but two?
Holy Shit!
I cut IKE off in the middle of his sentence, telling him to
be quiet as I flipped through the stations on the radio, trying to find a news
channel. Within seconds, I heard. My heart pounding, I called one of my closest
friends, and woke her up. I told her to turn on the news, That America was
under attack. She was groggy, and couldn’t understand what I was saying. I yelled into the phone “WE ARE UNDER ATTACK.
GET UP! CALL YOUR FAMILY!” And then I hung up. I tried to call other friends
and family, but my phone no longer worked. All I got was a quick busy signal,
letting me know the lines were jammed. Fuck. I couldn’t call BTM. Where was he?
I hugged him goodbye, and I drove to a class I was taking.
By the time I got there, I had a pretty good idea of what was happening. Then
inside, I panicked. What had I done? My kid was now 30 miles away. If something
happened in the Valley, I would never get to him. I rushed out of class and
drove frantically to pick him up. When I got to the school, the line of parents
there to pick up their kids trailed through the door. You see, we live in Los Angeles , and if New
York was attacked, we would most likely be next.
I finally got hold of BTM, and he was pretty calm. He said
he wasn’t leaving work, no matter how much I pleaded. He said he wasn’t scared,
but a bunch of guys asked if they could go home. It took 2 days for it to hit
him fully, when he stood in line at the market and saw a picture of a man and
woman holding hands, jumping from the building. He called me, sobbing.
When I got home with IKE, I turned on the TV, and for the
first time I saw what was happening. I cried, and IKE sat there in horrifying
awe. Then the news showed people in Pakistan , cheering and clapping.
There were children his age in the footage. He asked me why they were happy. I
told him that it seems those particular people in the news at this moment are our enemy. And then I tried to explain to him.
And I watched, in front of my eyes, this 10 year old boy completely lose his
innocence. His eyes got wide, and then hard, and he became quiet. Ike had
nightmares for 2 years after that, He would wake up, sweating and scared,
thinking we were under attack. And 9/11 forever changed his life too.
He grew up and joined the NAVY. A fairly safe branch of our
Military. However, IKE is not a docile man. He signed up for the part of the
NAVY that is dangerous. He says that America will never be safe, and we
will always have enemies. And if he can prevent another 9/11 so that we can go
about our lives, playing baseball and eating hot dogs in fairly ignorant bliss,
then that is what his purpose is. And I am scared for him. And for me. But
proud too.
And I know that if we are attacked again, then bad asses like my IKE will rise up. And then GOD help the enemy.